My dear boy, I really thought it would be easier after a year to share, talk and think about you. I was hoping that time would have helped to heal and to soothe the pain. There are good memories, but there is still the pain, there are beautiful photos, but there is still the sorrow, there are wonderful lessons but there is still a longing of waking up from a long sad dream. I still cannot understand or explain, there are still doubts and questionings of God's ways. It makes us vulnerable and humble, to be reminded of our own weakness. I was strongly hit by the lessons, the learnings of the fragility of life, the strength of a mother's love and the strong hold you gave all your family. I love to see them together, you gave them strength, you gave them a reason to come together without prejudice and selfishness. They are still strongly bonded together as a wonderful family. Your work was done to perfection. Everyone else that was touched by you, well, we are still learning, still growing, still sharing more love than ever before. I will try not think of what would have been only if... because it only opens the wound. I have come to understand that you did not need any more time to do what you came here to do. It is our turn to move on as you did, be strong as you were, be brave as you showed us. You will be here forever in more ways than you think. Always in my heart, and though it still hurts, I will learn to heal slowly and keep the good things, the lessons, the love. I am sure all this will flourish and fill my heart and diminish the pain. I have come to understand that it is not fair to you to think of you with pain. You endured enough for me not to strong enough to withstand it. I made a promise and I have kept it. I will go on with my promise with more love, more strength and more happiness. I promise you that now. Thank you once again. Love Your Godmother Nora